To Miss

There’s no wedding to miss the bouquet tossing of,

no child’s head to wet, to lay a gentle kiss and introduce yourself to,

no traditional life events that warrant you being there.

Your daughter is not opening her own business

buying a house for a family to grow in,

picking out lace and ivory with a rock on a finger.

None of these things are in the mind of me,

never really have been,

and so those events that bring material the maternal

will not be there for you to miss.

But the moments when I want to throw a smile at

share a tear with,

laugh that cackle with the first person I always think to do so with,

those softest of glows that smatter themselves

through a life ordinary,

these are that which you will not be there to cherish to

and that this bitten broken bracketed me

just wants you there regardless,

as I cannot regard them with you not here moma.

I just cannot.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s